The Problem With Getting High

I shouldn’t need anything extra just to feel normal.

In the past few days, I have been running an experiment. I’ve been drinking coffee just to see what it does for me. I’ve been trying it at different times of the day just to see how I respond. I think it’s been 4 or 5 days now, and I feel fine, but it’s just that sense of lack, that sense of needing something extra that really bugs me. That feeling of “not enough” reminded me of why I stopped doing anything else, pot, beer, sugar, whatever. All of that stuff is designed for dependence. I…